Leave me alone please!

i have to been honest that i have not enjoy nursing as the way as i am 12 years ago.. people that know me knew why and those who don't know me well is surprises and asking me why still stay on

i did and try to plan to leave and go somewhere else and work especially to other different country where nursing is better learning place for me to upgrade myself but unsuccessful........ can only blame myself

recently, my regular makan-kaki had just tender in and is leaving at end of this month to go to Dubai.... paying back the hospital outstanding of 10 months of bond and coming close to 10K... interview was June and now she is busy packing and clearing her AL and get to her new chapter of life

if i want to continue nursing, i need to move

if there any other way beside that????

" is not where you work, is depend who you are working with""

guess is very true as now the whole ICU is kind chaos due to some stupid personal clashes and involving some many unrelated staffs

for me as i don't get involve and keep my personal life away from work is unintentionally make me become a middle of nonsense cold war

leave me alone please........

i still have lot of things to get it right in my own personal life

i still need to plan my future

i have no time for office politics

i am totally exhausted from all these

leave clinical ???

everything happen for a reason................. tell me so