feeling lost

have not coming in here and write down the life story that i am having...... was quite down by few issue and realise it will not be over till is over

now is December and very soon a new year is here again and a new resolution again??

what are my plan and i know the is not an easy question to answer and yet is sound do easy to ask

currently in work place i am really wonder where do i belong....

i don't "polish SNM" shoes and so aren't many opportunity for me to attend conference and no TLs for seminar too

am i a threat to both of them that i will do a better job than them??

or is because of my good friends and my really close friends??

or it just matter after know who i am mixing around??

to stay on with the relationship of "colleague" for the sake of professional of work is really a tough job for me

and want to hang around and enjoy the same people companionship after work is totally out of questions........

i still have my life to go on

i don't believe in forming clique to show "power"

i believe is the capability that management should be looking for

and at the same times i know no one is prefect and that "devil" of bias is always there

lift everything off my shoulder and walk away...... as what the local said "bohchap"

there is lot of so called "office politic" is going on and i simply don't the games and rules and simply think i am hopeless in it

being alone is OK as long as my conscious is clear........

been working in ICU, i simply have to Thanks GOD for leading me into ICU Nursing and open my eyes and my heart of what is going on and how bless i am

it is true that we always chasing for more and forget to count our blessing???

a colleague forwarded me a email regarding life in different part of world and each definition of luxury is so different and yet some are so grateful and some still un-satisfy and asking for more and still chasing

in life, is money so important?
in life the latest technology is a measurement?

in Bhutan is the Gross of happiness that is a national measurement

what is happiness??

even myself can't answer that

have i try my best??

give up half way??

quit when things go wrong??

never can tell how close i am, it may near when it seem so far away

how close am i to it??