Went to Sentosa today to attend a Nutritional Immunology talk and it was good and still wonder why so many people still don't practice the "correct" lifestyle when we have the knowledge and also knew the purpose of it..... and i am included inside that group too :(
Have not really been to Sentosa for many years and few years ago went there to attend colleague's wedding dinner and only see it from VIVO city.... everything is still under construction and it really packed as today is the beginning of school holiday and all the hotel are fully booked... is the Singapore and Malaysia school holiday season!! Somehow the so many construction going on and tourists still wandering around, kind of like Dubai.
Too been honest, the desktop is having the chronic disease and quite lots of people have advised me to change instead of repair as now day the parts are quite expensive and computer are cheap!! No matter how cheap also caused at least 2K! That not an easy money to save!! 2K can get me to another round of tour!! Holiday!!
Anyway, if i didn't get it this week then i might just have to wait till the next IT Fair?? Actually, i think tomorrow will drop by there to have a look and most probably get one. Actually quite miss the current one as long the unable-to-start-disease is not flair up!!
Do i really need a computer?? If i didn't get one need one, as well to cancel the broadband subscription as no one is surf the nets except me....
If no computer, how to do my works???
Might just get one, no need to be so high tech or latest technology like the 3D games... a laptop will do...
Need to save up some $$$ as got a few tours i wish to go!! Really did want to attend the personal-forum-session but afraid i will end up with too much $$$ spent!
After a few rounds of walking in a very much crowded shopping center, i decided to take a bus home, which take the twice amount of travelling times if i take the MRT. It was full but i still manage to get a seat for the 40minutes journey!
There is so much of flash back of times of all the bus-journeys in the pasts.......
Life still go on even i wish for a time-freeze...
I know time will not stop for me.....
The hurt will always been there.......
Is not somethings to look forward for.....
Is not somethings to talk about........
Is not somethings to hold on for too long......
I know i have let-go but there is not regret now
Everything happen for a reason
My room is still cluster = hoarding ,, according to Oprah, it will affect my life if all this cluster is not remove......
am i still unconsciously still affected by it......
i don't seem to be able to be cluster-free
same things will just keep repeat and repeat!
more like i am torturing my life...... murdering my own life
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Am i so behind time??
Today attending a pre-retreat meeting and i didn't realise that i am so behind time as the role of promotion, most of the staff that attended are younger than me in years of services and many aim for high.
Be royal and hardworking is no longer an asset in an organization or personal resume, as more as "inflexible" and stupid for leading a routine working life. Guess not just our parents advices is not usefully but is no longer be value by this current trend of organization.
Work smart not work hard!
Indeed hit me hard and i don't really expect that all this is going on and i am so ignore of it!
Look early and jump out of the boiling soup fast and to an evergreen land is still safer with lots of opportunities and chances out there.
Many years ago when I know that I will be transferring to the Resp Ward and i was having nightmares and lots of things i have to struggles and looking back and it was one of the best experiences that ever happen to me!
Guess GOD have plan for me and when i stop resisting it and accept it, it was much softer and gentle.
Am i not really sure if i am following GOD plan or i have skip off from the path that HE plan for me
I know lots of times i am to blame for myself and i lacks of perseverance's and motivation to go on or even to start it
Shame on myself..........
All this dragging and non-selfless acts have cost on my own happiness...........
a lots times things we done for our own is not taken seriously and at the end of the days is all own self at loss
there is no one to blame as only me, myself and mine life!
Start to love myself and live for myself!
For the past 32years and looking back and regret is very too late!
How many more 32years more to look back???
Be royal and hardworking is no longer an asset in an organization or personal resume, as more as "inflexible" and stupid for leading a routine working life. Guess not just our parents advices is not usefully but is no longer be value by this current trend of organization.
Work smart not work hard!
Indeed hit me hard and i don't really expect that all this is going on and i am so ignore of it!
Look early and jump out of the boiling soup fast and to an evergreen land is still safer with lots of opportunities and chances out there.
Many years ago when I know that I will be transferring to the Resp Ward and i was having nightmares and lots of things i have to struggles and looking back and it was one of the best experiences that ever happen to me!
Guess GOD have plan for me and when i stop resisting it and accept it, it was much softer and gentle.
Am i not really sure if i am following GOD plan or i have skip off from the path that HE plan for me
I know lots of times i am to blame for myself and i lacks of perseverance's and motivation to go on or even to start it
Shame on myself..........
All this dragging and non-selfless acts have cost on my own happiness...........
a lots times things we done for our own is not taken seriously and at the end of the days is all own self at loss
there is no one to blame as only me, myself and mine life!
Start to love myself and live for myself!
For the past 32years and looking back and regret is very too late!
How many more 32years more to look back???
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
march 2010
March is here, CNY is just official over and this year from beginning of CNY and the end of it also i am off and manage to celebrate it with my mother.
To be honest, i didn't really expect that i will be granted this CNY to be off from duty as i was not working last year too. Guess since i ask, SNM just grant it as there is equal of number of staff to run the ICU.
It was a quieter this year as my Fifth Maternal Aunt and her family was not celebrating with us, their car broke down and it cost them a huge bomb to repair it at a foreigner territory and to upset with her husband in lack of responsibility in car servicing prior of long journey.
But this year, my Fourth Maternal Uncle joined us for two days as his whole family was in KL and Alor Setar and he choose not to join them as he need a peace from his wife constant nagging on his smoking. And he does smoke really really heavy as my mother as reminder me not to upset him on the smoking and temporary lift up my banning of smoking in our house for his sake as all his family members is not in town. And yes, i did bear with his smoking.
Work have been busy and it manage to tone down just before CNY and most of us just got extra off due to the low number of patients. I seriously don't know why NeuroICU is having the alternate year of massive resign/transfer-out/non-pay-leave event again. Have been deploying staff to there every days and sometimes, two shifts in a day. And now to solve the problem, SNM is asking for transfer over there to narrow the shortage.
And i seriously think the work-politic us really powerful there and at DNA too. How can a staff who are trained in different speciality and transfer to us and our colleagues have to cover the problem created by the staff there.
And i do wonder, where did all the staff left to???? Aren't the scale is unbalance now?????
And i guess, i might be the next on line for promotion but suddenly i realised that there is a lots of "short-cuts" taken by certain group of people for promotion!! And i might end to be push back down..... hmmmm..... do i really care???
And of course the promotion and the salary is attractive and it do help in my traveling plans.
Have i reach there??
To be honest, i didn't really expect that i will be granted this CNY to be off from duty as i was not working last year too. Guess since i ask, SNM just grant it as there is equal of number of staff to run the ICU.
It was a quieter this year as my Fifth Maternal Aunt and her family was not celebrating with us, their car broke down and it cost them a huge bomb to repair it at a foreigner territory and to upset with her husband in lack of responsibility in car servicing prior of long journey.
But this year, my Fourth Maternal Uncle joined us for two days as his whole family was in KL and Alor Setar and he choose not to join them as he need a peace from his wife constant nagging on his smoking. And he does smoke really really heavy as my mother as reminder me not to upset him on the smoking and temporary lift up my banning of smoking in our house for his sake as all his family members is not in town. And yes, i did bear with his smoking.
Work have been busy and it manage to tone down just before CNY and most of us just got extra off due to the low number of patients. I seriously don't know why NeuroICU is having the alternate year of massive resign/transfer-out/non-pay-leave event again. Have been deploying staff to there every days and sometimes, two shifts in a day. And now to solve the problem, SNM is asking for transfer over there to narrow the shortage.
And i seriously think the work-politic us really powerful there and at DNA too. How can a staff who are trained in different speciality and transfer to us and our colleagues have to cover the problem created by the staff there.
And i do wonder, where did all the staff left to???? Aren't the scale is unbalance now?????
And i guess, i might be the next on line for promotion but suddenly i realised that there is a lots of "short-cuts" taken by certain group of people for promotion!! And i might end to be push back down..... hmmmm..... do i really care???
And of course the promotion and the salary is attractive and it do help in my traveling plans.
Have i reach there??
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